Oh, my dear table family… it’s simply been far too long since I’ve connected with you and for that I am truly sorry! I didn’t intend for this much time to go by without posting but it’s been a journey. Let’s pray first huh?
Father in Heaven, I pray that there are still seats that are filled here at the table. I pray for Your Holiness to be recognized Lord and that these words reflect Your goodness. In Jesus name, Amen.
Well, here I am, ¼ of the way through my cancer excavation. It has been quite an excavation and I must admit that I am beyond happy to be done with Chemo! I’d like to share a little about my experience with Chemo if I may. My prayer is that it will be honest but also serve to encourage someone who may be facing it or knows someone who is facing it.
I’ve shared my first rodeo with the first round and it wasn’t pretty. I had serious doubts that I would survive treatment. I wondered if I should just live whatever life I had left with a level three of aggressiveness and enjoy that time. But I remembered my husband’s plea.
“I want you to promise me that you will do everything possible to fight this!”
How could I give up and give in now? I shuffled my way into the next round and we made some changes that made Chemo more bearable. There were many things to deal with such as debilitating fatigue, intense body ache, fevers, very limited food options, intestinal distress… Then of course there was the trauma of losing my hair and not recognizing myself in the mirror anymore. I felt like a mannequin. Devoid of color, features, and… well… hair. I simply didn’t feel at all like myself.
But God saw fit to spare me from the nausea and vomiting aspect of chemo. I also never got the dreaded mouth soars that I had heard about. In addition, I wasn’t fully sick from one treatment to another like so many are. God was gracious to me.
Then the Lord laid on my heart to begin praying for the other people at the cancer center. They were now my unofficial family. I found myself being a member of a family I had never wanted to be part of but now felt so connected to.
I also began a little ministry… per God’s prompting… to make prayer blankets for different people at the cancer center. I made one blanket for every treatment I had after the third round. I will have targeted treatment until May of 2022 so I’ll keep going with the blankets. They have been well received thus far and I find myself incredibly blessed after delivering a blanket.
I will be having surgery on September 30 and then radiation at the end of October. I met with my surgeon and discovered that the stage of my cancer was a little more advanced than we originally believed. We knew it was at the highest level of aggressiveness when we met with the Oncologist, but the stage was higher than we thought.
So, my excavation goes on and I will continue to let God direct the ministries He wants me to do and speak where He wants me to speak. I have a couple of upcoming speaking engagements and I pray I can be His mouth piece.
Well, I just wanted to give you all a quick update and apologize for the long delay in posting. I am ready to start stepping back into writing and speaking and ministry. I pray you all will still find a seat at the table. God bless each of you and my love to you all.