Hi table mates! I hope everyone is doing well. I wanted to share some updates with you and I’d love to hear from you all too! But ya know how we start our conversations so let’s jump into that…
Father in Heaven, you never allow things to happen in our lives without it first being filtered through Your hands. You always have teachable moments for us in every circumstance. Would You teach us now Lord? Show us the way. In Jesus name, Amen.
Well, it has been two weeks since I started my first Chemo treatment. I did pretty well the first couple of days. The third day rolled around and things began to change. My body began feeling the affects of the Chemo and I felt quite fatigued. My system went through changes that I wasn’t quite prepared for and ultimately, I spent three days in the hospital.
I became severely dehydrated and developed a fever. I felt week and vulnerable. I cried and I pleaded with the Lord to take away this valley. I didn’t think it was fair to have to go through all this and cancer too!
God heard my cries and reminded me of a very popular and often quoted bible verse… it’s found in Psalm 23, you know the one… the Lord is my Shephard, I shall not want…
Psalm 23:2 “He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters.” (ESV)
This was the particular verse that He brought to mind. “Still waters” in Hebrew refers to waters of rest. God pointed out to me that this was my still waters. I had no choice but to rest. I was in a hospital bed hooked up to an I V with nothing to do but rest. But it was also a time for my soul to rest. I was a little panicky about my situation and God needed me to stop and rest.
I’ve had to step back from so many things due to cancer and I’m learning that it is a season for my soul to rest and be lead beside still waters. To feed my soul on God’s word and therapeutic activities that will quiet my spirit.
I have always loved to do bead crafting. Just the simple act of stringing beads to make garlands, tie-backs, hangers, or whatever, is very therapeutic and calming. I have ordered some new beads to add to what I already have and I am going to let that be my still waters for a time. Along with other hand to project crafting that I love to do.
Have you ever sat beside a stream or pond and felt so peaceful at its stillness? It just is serene and quiet. It’s the place of respite that we often escape to when life get’s complicated… even if it’s vicariously on YouTube or our favorite Alexa app.
Find those still waters that God is leading you beside and just allow the respite to take place. It’s not selfish or a waste of time, it’s the very thing God is longing to do for us. It restores our soul. This is one of the things I’m unearthing as I dig deeper on this cancer excavation. I am trying to study more about our bodies being the temple of the Holy Spirit and how we need to care for it. One of those ways is to nurture our souls by being lead beside still waters.
This next week is my second round of Chemo and we will be making some changes to adjust the medication so as to not land me in the hospital again. Your prayers are as always so valued and appreciated. How can I pray for you?