I Thought he liked me… but he didn’t

Hi all! Welcome back! We are nearing the “month of LOVE” as they say. I will be having a dear friend of mine guest posting in February on this topic. But I wanted to share an experience I had in high school with you that actually had to do with St. Patrick’s Day but sort of intermingled with Valentine’s Day too.

As I have mentioned before, I was not the girl in school that all the guys wanted to date. In fact, I was the girl all the guys wanted to make sure they DIDN’T date. Not many guys at that age were willing to go out with the chick who couldn’t see! You can imagine the jokes and inferences that went around about that.

Well long about St. Patrick’s Day, my school student body put together a “send a shamrock” type event. Students could purchase a card stock cut out of a shamrock, write a message on it, attach a Blow Pop sucker, and have it waiting for their recipient at lunch time. In the words of Charlie Brown… “I know nobody likes me, why do we have to have a holiday season to emphasize it?”

I knew there was not likely to be a shamrock waiting for me on the lunch table that day, but for whatever reason, my friends and I decided to check out the table in the event THEY might have received one from that special someone. As they were sifting through the pile, one of my friends said “Cyndi! Here’s one for you!” “WHAT!” I yelped in disbelief. She thrust it at me and I quickly turned it over to see who it was from. I could still read large enough print at that time and the messages were written in marker. My mouth gaped open and I very noticeably shrieked… loudly! I couldn’t believe who it was signed by. The coolest guy in school! He was a friend of my brothers and I had been crushing on him for two solid years. More like full blown in love with.

He would come over to the house to work on cars and jam out to the latest tunes. He had a super cool swagger to his walk. He played football and was just the whole reason I got up and went to school for two years.

Now here in my hands I held a paper shamrock signed by him, to me, with the message that surely meant we were going to prom together, going to the same college, then getting married and having children together!

It said… Have a nice day!

If that’s not a marriage proposal, I don’t know what is. I walked… no… floated through the rest of my day and clutched that shamrock to my heart. I never did eat the sucker. I thought maybe he would want to use it to propose with. The feeling and wedding plans came to a screeching halt when I found out that it wasn’t really him who sent it. It was from someone who knew I had strong feelings for this boy and tried to give me some joy. It truly was not meant in malice, it was from the heart meant for good. Unfortunately, the emotions I experienced after learning that all my wedding plans were for not, still left me with a devastated heart.

When we feel such a let down from people, it’s easy to think we must not be very valuable. We must not be important enough for someone to find us worthy. Sometimes we can project these feelings of not good enough, not valued, worthlessness, onto our heavenly Father. For me it often sounds like this…

If this person who is physically, tangibly, part of my life doesn’t find me valuable, then how can the creator of all the universe find me valuable. I mean of everything He has made— mountains, oceans, jungles, and every living thing known and unknown, these have to be higher on His list of valued creations then little ol’ me. Have you ever felt like that? Let me share a couple verses with you…

Genesis Chapter 1— and God “said” let there be light, and there was light, and God saw that the light was “good”…  and God “said” let the waters under the heavens gather together into one place and let the dry land appear… and God saw that it was good…and God “said” let the earth sprout vegetation…

You see where this is going…

Now in verse 27, it says God “created” man in His own image.  Do you see the difference? God spoke all His creation into existence. But He Himself CREATED you and me! Created with His own hands from what He already spoke into creation.

Genesis 2:7 tells us that God formed man from the dust of the ground. I can imagine God getting down on His hands and knees and lovingly molding man like a child makes forms out of mud and presents it like a master piece to his parents. God loved you so much that simply speaking you into existence was just a little to impersonal. He wanted a hands-on approach for this job. Then He breathed His own breath into you and gave you life! Even then, God gave of Himself for you and for me. Oh, and He called this creation “very” good!

If a God like that values you and me this much, no shamrock in the world can compare!

It took time to get past my hurt over the shamrock sham, but I eventually did. I also got over the two year hold that boy had on me. God had another plan. A plan to lead me to a man that cherishes me and values me. God also lead me to Himself, the one who cherishes and values me more then even my husband could; and friends He has this same value and love for all of us. Trust His message for you over any ol’ shamrock message.

So now that we have our spiritual nourishment, let’s grab a “soup-er” easy soup recipe. Soup is so very comforting, kind of like God’s word, only His food needs no extra flavors…

 

5 Can Mexican Soup:

Bowl of Mexican Soup topped with cheese and sourcream1 can corn

1 can pinto beans

1 can diced tomatoes with chilies

1 can vegetable broth

1 can black beans rinsed and drained

½ pkg. taco seasoning if you want to kick it up a notch.

 

You quite literally dump all the ingredients together in a Dutch oven. Liquid included, minus the liquid from the black beans. Sprinkle on some Mexican style shredded cheese and a dollop of sour cream and mmm mmm, so good!

4 thoughts on “I Thought he liked me… but he didn’t

  1. Hahahaha, this reminds me that i have never celebfated this day in my life. for some reason the people i was dating during that time either weren’t romantics or it explains the reason i am single right now

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    1. Awww, Audrey no matter if you have ever celebrated it or not… you can this year! Buy or make yourself some chocolates or cookies or something yummy and sweet. Then celebrate how much God loves YOU! Because He does ya know, very much! His love is yummy and sweet. I’m so glad to hear from you and I hope you find a permanent seat at the table 🙂 Maybe you could make yourself the soup you found here for dinner! If ya like mexican food. See ya next week!

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