When I first started blogging a year ago, I was honored and privileged to have Proverbs 31 Ministries author and speaker Lynn Cowell, invite me to guest post on her blog just one short month after my blog was live. I had just had a conversation with God telling Him I was giving this blog into His hands to grow it as He saw fit. Later that same day I received Lynn’s Email with the invitation.
Lynn has now graciously agreed to guest post for me just two months shy of one year from my guest post. I am so honored to share a post from Lynn with you this week. My special and heart felt thank you to her for many things, including this post…
When I Doubt My Confidence
“Mary therefore took a poundof expensive ointment made from pure nard, and anointed the feet of Jesus and wiped his feet with her hair. The house was filled with the fragrance of the perfume.” John 12:3 (NIV)
Why did this memory come back now after so many years?
All was quiet in the early hours of the morning as I spent some time with the Lord…when an unwanted memory popped in my mind.
Painful and hurt-filled, this memory from years ago, involved me unknowingly letting someone down. She felt I had failed her and that my failure was an indication that I was unqualified. She let others know what she thought as well.
I was well past that blow, wasn’t I?Why did it return now of all times?
As I reflected for a few moments, the Holy Spirit helped me understand. I had recently made a new move with the Lord, saying yes to a challenging assignment. Once I saw my returned memory in that light, it made sense. The enemy would remind me what he had tried to drill into me years before: you don’t have what it takes, trying to bring my confidence into doubt.
It’s not the first time Satan has used this tactic.
We see him do the same to Mary as she anointed the feet of Jesus in John 12:3.
Mary knew her culture’s rules, just as you and I know ours. She was very aware that her place was not at the feet of Jesus; women were not “allowed” to learn directly from a teacher. Yet, it didn’t matter to her what others thought.
MarymayhavefeltscaredofthecrowdsurroundingJesusasshe approached Him, but she didn’t allow fear to hold her back. Confidence in the love of Jesus compelled her.
Mary’s heart and eyes were on one person: Jesus. As her perfume drifted through the air, others turned toJesus, from whom this lovely fragrance emanated. As Mary made her move toward Jesus, the enemy made his.
Through Judas, Satan tried to push Mary and all who were witnessing her love to look anywhere but on the King of Glory. Push Mary to become self-conscious and look to herself.
PushMarytodrawattentiontoherselfthroughherreaction.Pushothers to doubt Mary’s sincerity and look to judge her. Push the entire room to validate Judas and look to exalt her accuser. Anywhere but looking upon Jesus.
The enemy hates God’s glory, this radiance, this confidence, which is the Holy Spirit Himself in us. This is why the enemy tries to crush our confidence, and one of his main tactics is diversion—getting our eyes off of Jesus.
We have to be aware that where God moves, the enemy moves. As long as we are on this earth and “the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour” (1 Peter 5:8), there will be opportunities for our confidence to be attacked and for us to turn to our God for His help.
The day my failure came to mind, the enemy might have thought he was being oh-so-sneaky. He knows we reflect the beauty, goodness, and love of his enemy, Jesus. He will do all he can to push down this glory, and he will use any tactic, including our past failures and fears.
When you make your move toward Jesus, like Mary did, that means the enemy looks to move as well. He looks for an opportunity to bring opposition. Even while you are in the very act of advancing and growing in your faith, the enemy will try to stop you. When he presses, pushing us to abandon Christ’s confidence in us, we must push harder toward Jesus and remind the enemy that he is not qualified to do that.
Jesus, when the enemy uses his tactics to try to get me to take my eyes off You, help me to not abandon the confidence I have gained in You. Instead, help me to remember who You have proven Yourself to be to me and who You are in me. You are my confidence. In Jesus’s name, Amen.
Lynn Cowell’s newest Bible study for women, Make Your Move: Finding Unshakeable Confidence Despite Your Fears and Failures,empowers women to build their confidence on Christ alone.
If you know a young girl who needs to learn to be brave and become courageous, confident and fearless, Brave Beauty: Finding the Fearless Youis the book for her! Order your copy here.
Take a moment to reflect on a time when the enemy attempted to steal God’s glory in you. It may have occurred, when like Mary, you were pointing others to your Jesus.
The enemy does not have the right or the power to steal from us what Jesus has already died to give us: freedom and healing. Take this time to once again thank Jesus that He is the King of Glory and deserves all our worship.
© 2017 by Lynn Cowell. All rights reserved.
Thank you again, Lynn! And now for this week’s recipe to share around the table:
Twisted Green Bean Casserole
3 16oz. cans green beans, drained
1 ½ cups frozen corn (approximately 1 can)
2 cups sour cream
1 can cream of celery, onion, or mushroom soup (cream soup of your choice. I usually use onion or celery)
4 oz. buttery round crackers
½ cup butter melted
1 ½ cups shredded swiss cheese
Preheat oven to 350 digrees F. Place the green beans and corn into a 2 qrt. Dish, spread evenly. In medium Bowl stir sour cream, cream of soup. Spread over greenbean mix. Sprinkle cheese over the top. Stir together melted butter and crushed crackers, spread over the top. Bake for 15-20 minutes.
This is a delicious new twist on an old classic for Thanksgiving. I hope you get a chance to give it a try!